"Sayonara" -TP

Everything went wrong since that night. He didn't say anything to me, at all. And the next day, he told me two of his friends found out about that night. I was surprised. "My Shadow" and "My Conscience" he said. Well, couldn't help but to guess that the 'friends' are all himself actually. Tripolar Person.

After being advised to be brave by he himself, I decided to tell him the truth, about how I liked him and about how I couldn't just forget about everything that has happened. However, he decided to say goodbye, and leave me there all alone. He said it's best for me to forget about him and hate him along the way. I told him I can never hate him, no matter what he did to me and I told him to pretend as if I never confronted him last night in return I would pretend that night never happened.

Maybe this is for the best.

xx

Back..?

i think every time i write a new post in this blog, the first thing i say is always "i have abandoned this blog" or "long time no write" or things like that. i am officially not a loyal writer. i hate reading, i hate writing, and i don't even know how that got me into TESL (Teaching English as Second Language) programme, since i have to deal with deepened Reading and Writing courses :/ it is just plainly weird.

the last time i wrote in this blog, i was still a crazy fan of K-Pop and ZE:A. i am no longer a big fan now, that should explain how long have i been abandoning this blog ._. i currently have no obsession, AT ALL. for someone who needs to have role models in life, i am kind of lost nowadays. my role models usually come from my obsession. since i left K-Pop, i went back to listening J-Rock stuffs, but i found it kind of too hard for me and i just didn't like the fact that i missed too much news about them, and i don't know where to start again. then, i tried International Alternative Rock, like the bands 30 Seconds to Mars, My Chemical Romance and Kill Hannah, and i found myself very happy with the music. HOWEVER, i am not obsessed to any of the bands like i used to when i was younger, 13 to 15 years old. that basically explains how lost i am :/

i am now in University of Malaya (UM) in Kuala Lumpur. i finished my Foundation in TESL programme in Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM) about 6 months ago. i am doing Bachelor in Education for TESL programme right now. lots of things happened, and if i were to tell every single things of them, i would take me a week, fully in front of my netbook to write. so what's passed is passed. if i feel like writing later, i will.

i really should be here often though. this helps with my writing skills. and i am such a bad writer. one of my lecturers in UiTM told me i sucked at writing orz i guess i'll try to write in my blog as much as i can. or if i have things to write about. since my life is full of nothingness, there's nothing to write :V oh well.

xoxo Kim T

Kena Halau -__-"

here comes another day without money to buy food. i feel so poor. it was 0820 and we were having breakfast like usually. and Shida said that there was no venue for Reading class. so she texted Nazurah and waited for the reply. i'm not sure whether Nazurah replied late or Shida didn't notice there was a reply, but we had a test and the class was at M310. and so, we walked there. and i saw Nazurah, with her phone outside the class. she gave me a sign of "hurry up" or something, but i thought it was nothing so i walked very slowly.

soon as i reached the door to the classroom, i saw Pn. Nazeera locking the door. and i looked at her, and she showed me her watch, saying "it's late". so i turned around and told the other girls [Shida, Nana, Nina, Ayuni, Eca] that she locked us out. and that we couldn't enter the classroom for now. we were all very shocked. well, the lecturer was the kind who is very lenient, so we might have taken her for granted. Shida then said that we should try to get into the class, and talk to her, say our apologize and everything since the door was no longer locked after Rose has gotten into the class. she wasn't late, she just went out to go to the toilet before the test started.

and then, Shida went into the classroom, and i saw Nana going out of the classroom, it was a bad sign. Pn. Nazeera went out and she was mad at us. she asked us to write a letter with a valid reason of why we were late for the test. and we can only sit for the test after the letter has been given to her. she said that she wanted to teach us a lesson, "if you dare coming to the test late, you will surely come late for your final exam," she said. after some moment of silence, we decided to go to the library and write the letter right away.

Nana was the one with the most concern, she was so stressed out. and Eca was so regretful for what we've done. i honestly didn't feel so bad about it because i have gone through worse with Ms Sally last semester. but i could totally understand them. well, the test would be converted to 10% for our final exam. we wrote the letter at the library and printed them out right away.

and outside the computer lab, we met Ain and Pah. they are both from Group D. and they said that Pn. Zarina (our College Writing II lecturer) wasn't in a good mood. so they advised us on not to make her mad today, and i thought that we still had lots of time left, since we were 'halaued' by Pn. Nazeera. so i told Nana, "why don't we photocopy everything that Pn. Zarina has asked us to photocopy and print everything that she asked us to print and compile everything in a file like she wanted us to?" And Nana agreed. so there we were rushing again to save our lives from Pn. Zarina this time around.

and when we were at the photocopy machine, Eca told us that Ayuni texted her, saying that we have to take the Reading test right now! Pn. Nazeera has given us a chance to sit for the test today. but i didn't want to go, because we had only half and hour, so we continued photocopying all the things we needed for the next class. then, Shida texted me saying "come to class right now. she's given us another chance". so i told Nana that "we have to go this time,". we were running to class, and we successfully sat for the test in about half an hour. so hell yeah. i was kinda annoyed until theday ended. haha.

Awkward .____.

okay, i must admit that i actually have forgotten about this blog already.

the last time i posted something was about a year ago?

oh goddamn it, this feels so weird..

oh anyhow, i just can't wait to get home this weekend and look through for old notebooks and try to see if there's any one with my old e-mails on it.

i really want my old blogs back T^T

they are much prettier than this one. i wish i would find the e-mails, so that i can just renew my passwords and get back on my old blogs.

Nana is sleeping on my bed now, we only have a class tomorrow, which is College Writing II. and we have done our assignment, so we have nothing to do tonight hehe

this somehow, feels kind of weird because we usually do last minute works xD

we ate Maggi and now she's already asleep hahaha

i got my MUET result today.

cukup-cukup makan, i got Band 4

well, i must say that it was such a relieve because to continue doing TESL in UiTM, we must achieve at least Band 4 but, the disappointment is still there. i wanted, and expected, more. Band 5 at least i guess. but i better be grateful or the God will be mad at me, and i'll die soon haha